I am excited because the dots are connecting at an exciting rate.Im accomplishing tasks everyday even though Im still procrastinating on some things.The positive thing is I am more hopeful,more grateful,more humble therefore Im in constant learning mode.Things are looking more like a puzzle and they fit together.I have many aha moments.I realise I need to do much more me-work and me-processing.Im encountering more opportunities at an exponential rate.However knowing I struggle to focus and complete one thing at a time,I need to plan the work and work the plan.The vehicle for this will be discipline.I know I need to complete many books I have in my possession so far.This resolution to read and increase my knoledge through the experience of others who have lived lives touched by Grace,will connect the dots in my life.This is in terms of making sense of concepts of concepts and also implementation of key tasks which will become frequent activities and then habits and then behaviour.Encountering people who feel this way,or in other words people who feel my pulse gives me a great feeling of validation.Its the meeting of great minds and kindred spirits.I loves it.Its so simple.Indeed,who I am will be a self-feeding energy because I will be earning as a result of doing what I love doing and vice versa.I have experienced failure so many times, and now know its part of it all so I no longer fear it.Failure does not condemn me,I have the choice to that without anyone´s help.
I will also become excited about that aspect because I know ¨The darkest hour is just before dawn¨.God has been since forever and is still today so good to me,over and over again.All the points in my life are starting to take form,to form a shape and I thank Him for being patient with me.I no longer say my usual survivalist clichès,Im living them.When I say ¨The thing to fear is fear is fear itself¨ I really mean it.Its a conviction.Therefore as with Lauryn Hill who says its worth it when the reason for the struggle we have to go through is revealed.The enlightenment is revealed if we keep looking for it.The key is to look.The key is to ask ourselves hard questions.I have learnt in the last week that I have to keep looking for ways to fulfill my dreams.This involves knowing myself,what I want and how much I want what I want.This is specific messaging to the brain,its not a loosely construed idea of happiness.Then a critical next step is writing down the objectives of one´s life.We have to realise that when we decide to take charge,someone or something will want to steal our commitment to change,our dream for the future.The spirit of backwardness that has been ruling our lives will want to hold us back,so if you are in a state of self-learning and vigilance you will quickly identify these self-sabotage tactics and avoid them.I was reading The Prayer of Jabez and the author summarises it so well whe he says,if you are not in the ring of a fight for which you are currently ill prepared,then you are by default not part of that fight.Therefore by eliminating ourselves from circumstances that could deter us prom progress.Tomorrow is a continuation of today,and Im looking forward to it.
Invictus
